I seem to be fading about my blog !
I seem to be fading about my blog.
My website is just laying there, ready for me to spruce it up here and there...
I am listening to jennie stearns ...this is definately going on my list as some of the best music buys I bought this year. of course, the most influential has to be Lost In Translation. About 30% of the new music I buy has some elements of the music that was in the sountrack of the movie.
...whatchyadoin? is my adjunct blog, about my goals and jobsearch and stuff, seems to be easier to write there than here...
I have a book I am wandering through , and in it, is an essay by Donald M. Murray , Letter To A Young Writer... and he has questions that he answers in his journals almost everyday, according to this essay...of course, some of it probably is supposed to be applied to a character...
What suprises me ? People who still support Bush.
Where's the tension ? I hunch my shoulders. My shoulders. Also, jobhunting.
What should be ? I should have a wonderfully clean apt. and a job .
What is ? I am slowly clearing / cleaning out my apt, and I haven't done much about jobhunting.
Where's the conflict ? Between what I really want to do, and what I feel that maybe people/ society thinks I should do. Also, between people wanting to live their lives... and people who want to control how other people live their lives...
Where will these ideas, issues, people collide ? I think that about the apt clearing/ cleaning... I need to a cleaner apt to enable to me be more socialable. I think as to job hunting, I need to deal with my own interests and not settle into just any job. As far as people controlling other's lives- esp. in the political / cultural / religious arena, I think Sting has it right , People go crazy in congregations , they get well one by one.
What's the problem ? Mine or someone else's? Mine right now is one of motivation. However, ask the right question and here I am. Someone else's ... as far as cultural control, I think it's fear. I think ignorance and hate, I think it's fear of unknown or maybe that some cultural paradigms are catching.
What's different from what I expected? Honestly, I think by my mid 40's I expected to be married with the 2-3 kids. Didn't happen.
What are the implications ? For me ? I still have hope - I am an optimist, a Romantic ( in both the hearts & flowers arena, and the old poetic/Blakean sense ) who believes there are a few soulmates out there for me... Current situation is that I am rather pleased to be alone about 40% of the time, neutral about 30% of the time and discontent 20% of the time... the other 10% is just flat out lonely. Even the smallest apt. can seem cavernous and big and echoing without a companion.
What are the connections ? As to jobhunting , I am afraid of the economy. To the apt cleaning, i want to do it slowly, and completely. As to food & weight, swing shift work and grief screwed with my scheduling. I think as to connections to Bush... I am concerned with his overwhelming concern and involvement with the top , say 20% of society and his detached views of the middle class, lower class, and people in poverty. I still think he should try living on , say , 8 $ an hour in about 8 different locations throughout the nation for a month or so.
What contradicts ? I sincerely want to find a decent to good job but am not putting much energy towards it.
Phew. Thanks Mr. Murray. This essay was written I believe in 1993. It's contained in the book, The Best Writing on Writing, edited by Jack Heffron... helped spark some writing I didn't know I had in me.
May peace prevail on earth !
My website is just laying there, ready for me to spruce it up here and there...
I am listening to jennie stearns ...this is definately going on my list as some of the best music buys I bought this year. of course, the most influential has to be Lost In Translation. About 30% of the new music I buy has some elements of the music that was in the sountrack of the movie.
...whatchyadoin? is my adjunct blog, about my goals and jobsearch and stuff, seems to be easier to write there than here...
I have a book I am wandering through , and in it, is an essay by Donald M. Murray , Letter To A Young Writer... and he has questions that he answers in his journals almost everyday, according to this essay...of course, some of it probably is supposed to be applied to a character...
What suprises me ? People who still support Bush.
Where's the tension ? I hunch my shoulders. My shoulders. Also, jobhunting.
What should be ? I should have a wonderfully clean apt. and a job .
What is ? I am slowly clearing / cleaning out my apt, and I haven't done much about jobhunting.
Where's the conflict ? Between what I really want to do, and what I feel that maybe people/ society thinks I should do. Also, between people wanting to live their lives... and people who want to control how other people live their lives...
Where will these ideas, issues, people collide ? I think that about the apt clearing/ cleaning... I need to a cleaner apt to enable to me be more socialable. I think as to job hunting, I need to deal with my own interests and not settle into just any job. As far as people controlling other's lives- esp. in the political / cultural / religious arena, I think Sting has it right , People go crazy in congregations , they get well one by one.
What's the problem ? Mine or someone else's? Mine right now is one of motivation. However, ask the right question and here I am. Someone else's ... as far as cultural control, I think it's fear. I think ignorance and hate, I think it's fear of unknown or maybe that some cultural paradigms are catching.
What's different from what I expected? Honestly, I think by my mid 40's I expected to be married with the 2-3 kids. Didn't happen.
What are the implications ? For me ? I still have hope - I am an optimist, a Romantic ( in both the hearts & flowers arena, and the old poetic/Blakean sense ) who believes there are a few soulmates out there for me... Current situation is that I am rather pleased to be alone about 40% of the time, neutral about 30% of the time and discontent 20% of the time... the other 10% is just flat out lonely. Even the smallest apt. can seem cavernous and big and echoing without a companion.
What are the connections ? As to jobhunting , I am afraid of the economy. To the apt cleaning, i want to do it slowly, and completely. As to food & weight, swing shift work and grief screwed with my scheduling. I think as to connections to Bush... I am concerned with his overwhelming concern and involvement with the top , say 20% of society and his detached views of the middle class, lower class, and people in poverty. I still think he should try living on , say , 8 $ an hour in about 8 different locations throughout the nation for a month or so.
What contradicts ? I sincerely want to find a decent to good job but am not putting much energy towards it.
Phew. Thanks Mr. Murray. This essay was written I believe in 1993. It's contained in the book, The Best Writing on Writing, edited by Jack Heffron... helped spark some writing I didn't know I had in me.
May peace prevail on earth !
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